Hurt beyond words

I noe i said tt i dun wanna blog bout unhappy stuffs but i cant keep this in anymore. I feel so unappreciated. His words this morning really hurt me alot. In his eyes i'm useless. I only noe how to spend money. Dunno how to help out at home. Really useless. 他的一句 "她沒有用的!" 就否定了我所做的一切. I feel so hurt .. This hurt tt i'm feeling now is indescribable. To him the younger ones are always better than me.

I'm already 23 .. 24 my coming bday .. 25 if u r going by the lunar calender. Its not tt i'm staying out late everyday. I only stay out late some wkends. Y mus u pick on me?? Y mus u have double standards?? Y mus u say such hurtful words?? U may not have said it to my face but hearing u say tt still hurts big time. If staying out late makes me useless than i'ld rather not come home at all. Dun have to quarrel with u. Dun have to hear those hurtful words. Dun have to cry silent tears.

SICK!!

Yes!! My title says it all.. I'm SICK!! Sick of everything's tt has been happening to me n ard me .. Physically sck too .. I've been sick since fri night and i still insisted on staying out late on sat. Ended up with high fever on Sun. Spent the whole of Sun alone at home self medicating, while doing my report n trying to catch some slp .. N lets not forget feeling sorry for myself .. For the past wk, i've been having some personal troubles and also work related matters have also added into my problems .. Cant seem to solve something before someting else happens .. I've been asking myself this qns the past wk .. "Have i made the right decision??" "If i decide not to follow this path now would i regret it in future??" .. I'm freaking tired now .. my whole body is aching .. even my head is aching too .. This post is not makin sense .. Think the fever has fried up my brain .. Got MC tmr .. But think still have to go back office to clear up some stuffs .. Now i'm beginning to finally understand y he still insists on going back to work even though he's sick .. But have i understood it too late?? NVM .. Pls ignore me today .. N maybe tmr n the day after tmr ... Make tt forever ..

My parents are still the best!!

Its times like these that reminds me tt i'm still my parents daughter and they love me .. It jus makes me appreciate them more .. Thx Daddy n Mummy!! I HEART u guys!!

Been thru a rollercoaster of emotions today .. Let today end faster please ..

I'm starving .. Haven had dinner yet .. Last time i ate was at 12 noon ... ... ... Can someone pls feed me??

Happy 2008!!

Its a brand new year and its time for brand new beginnings. I dun believe in making resolutions cos i always end up breaking them .. Haha .. Brought in the new year at Crazy Elephant at Clark Quay. We were shouting most of the time cos the amplifier was jus above us .. So it was freaking noisy .. Almost impossible to talk. Things started moving after we finished the first bottle of Jim Bean and started on the second bottle .. After last night i realised that my alcohol tolerance limit has taken a nose dive since the last time i went partying .. Was damn high when i was only at my 3rd glass .. after my 4th glass i was seeing double and was guzzling ice water .. Got no one to send me home .. So cannot get drunk .. Haha .. Anyway this is the first time tt i puked after drinking .. It was a very nasty experience .. Think it was the combi of the drinks and the hour long bus ride home ..