Betrayed

Whats it like to finally find out that you have been backstabbed by someone whom u have treated as a sister, a confidante, whom u tot that u could trust?

Not once, not twice but countless of times??

Its like having a blunt knife plunged into ur heart and the knife is twisted and turned while its in. Tt's how it feels.

I've always thought that i'm able to judge a person's character fairly accurately.

Apparently NOT!!

Looking back there were signs tt i shld have paid attention to.

Many ppl were also trying to hint me n caution me about putting too much trust in her.

Guess i was too naive and wanted to believe the best in her.

She has proved me wrong and all the other ppl correct.

She is not wat she seems.

I've finally seen her for wat she is truly.

I'm feeling terribly upset and disappointed but i am not going to shed another tear for this betrayed friendship.

Not gonna waste any more time n energy on her.

I'm gonna learn from this very painful lesson and chalk this up to a lesson learnt.

This is the price that i've gotta pay to learn not to trust ppl so easily.

Found ..

Someone found my staff pass and passed it to the Lost and Found counter at the Student Services Center ..

Is this a sign??

Is it trying to tell me that things are turning better??

Is it telling me to stick ard a little bit longer??

See yourself as others see you...

You are trying to prove to others that nothing can really affect you. You are pretending to be stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure and indeed even superior to any form of weakness. As a result, more often than not, you unfortunately act with undue harshness or severity by adopting an autocratic and self-willed attitude.

You are presently worried about your future and you feel that whatever you do will go wrong. At this time you are your own worst enemy. All the disappointment that you have experienced, coupled with the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals, have led to anxiety. You would like recognition and a position of trust but you are concerned that these hopes and dreams may not be realised. You are very argumentative and insistent that you are right - maybe you are - but you are pushing too hard. Take it easy, let go, and smile. Smiling and agreeing with people works wonders - try it and see.

For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.

You feel unhappy because you feel that you are not able to obtain the co-operation of those around you. All you would like at this time would be to achieve harmony within your circle.

You seem to lack the energy of late to get up and go. Your objectives appear to be unattainable and no one seems to care. You feel lost, neglected and need some W.T.C. (Warm tender care).

Some peace and quiet please!!

Sometimes its not that i dun wanna stay at home ..

But i've got a splitting headache and its like a fish market sometimes ..

And mom will find every opportunity to nag at me ..

I have concluded that only 張家的女人 will scold and nag and bring in all other stuffs not related to the present quarrel. And they will only have this problem with the eldest child. Namely ME!! Apparently its the same situation with my 大姨 and 二姨 ..

Second taste of Sake!!

I had my second taste of Sake last night. Went for dinner with some colleagues and my 2 bosses at this Japanese restaurant at Crown Center along Bukit Timah Road. According to D. San, this restaurant is an authentic jap restaurant. We even got to sit in the VIP room where we had to remove our foot wear and there's this depression in the center on the table for us to put our legs. Okay .. I'm not good at describing .. Its jus wat u usually c on TV in those Jap dramas. Back to the topic, the food was great and the sashimi very very fresh, we didn't eat much though, cos we were busy chatting and drinking beer and sake. The Sake that D. San ordered was sweet and fruity unlike my first time trying the sake which was a gift from my dad's friend from Japan. Well, D. San thought us the correct way of drinking Sake and the different grades of Sake. U r suppose to take a small sip of sake n hold it in ur mouth for a short time before swallowing it. Very much like drinking wine. At the end of the evening, i was damn high, 5 of us finished a 720 ml bottle of Sake with 15% alcoholic content. and 2 of them were drivers so they couldn't drink much ..

Can't wait to get my hands on them ..

My Steve Madden Forgiven Knee High Black Boots have arrived!!

But it's in Sydney ..

Gotta have to wait till June when my aunt gets back before i can get them ..

According to Wendy, they're very nice ..

Cant wait to get my hands on them ..

I noe if i wear them in Sunny Singapore ppl will stare ..

But .. Who cares .. As long as i'm happy .. Haha ..

I'll definitely be wearing them when i'm in Sydney in August ..

Lost..

.. I lost my staff pass somewhere along the way from Valley Block to Can A ..

Is this a sign???

Is it trying to tell me something??

Iced Teh Cino

Had a late dinner/early supper at the prata place at Casuarina. The moment i stepped in the uncle saw me and asked me "Iced Teh Cino? Sweet?" And he'll come with 2 cup, One with more milk specially for me. I'm such a regular customer there that one uncle in particular rmbs tt i like my iced teh cino sweet. Cos sometimes they dun put enough milk in and it tastes bland. Actually i havent been there for ages until there was this particular sunday aftn last sept when i went to choose the studio photos with wendy and then we went down there for lunch. Tt was when i tried their Iced Teh Cino and fell in love with it. Previously, i used to frequent the prata place opp thomson plaza. But their Iced Teh Cino gradually lost std until it tasted like iced water. So far no complaints for the Casuarina's Iced Teh Cino. If one day tt one also lost std then i've gotta find another place to satisfy this sweet tooth of mine ... But think tt day wun be too soon ..

I've Forgotten ...

Forgotten how to be happy ... I miss the MeiQian who used to laugh so carefreely. I miss the happy-go-lucky MeiQian with a smile on her face. I want to go back to 1.5 yrs ago. Before i graduated. Before i started working.

Weekend off to a bad start

I've had a pretty bad day today. Woke up this morning to find that my mom threw away my Define contact lenses cos she couldn't find hers and thot that that box of CLs was hers. Y did she throw it away?? Cos she thot that fungi have grown on the lens!!?!! Its the design on the lens to make my pupils look bigger duh!! And she said that she didn't know ... I've been putting my lenses in the cabinet at a corner since dunno when and suddenly she decides to throw away my lenses and then she comes and blames me that its my fault and i should have labelled the box. Wah piang. My lens box and hers totally different lor. Totally different brand lor. Focus and Acuvue cannot differentiate and it becomes my fault. WTH!! To make things worse, she decided to bring in all those other stuffs not related to this into the quarrel. In the car!! and .. even worse, we were caught in a freaking jam the moment we turned onto TPE!!! WTH!! Somehow the topic of me not talking to my sis came up and it became my fault again. Hello!! How to talk to someone when everything that you say she treats it as if are picking a quarrel?? How to tok to someone when she already feels that you are an unfeeling bitch?? WT BLOODY H!! Everything that goes wrong at home becomes my fault. Could my day get any worse than this?? Yes it could!!! Read on..

At work, attended the usual friday presentation then straight away went down to lab .. Not to do do testing or simulations wor.. But to be odd job labourers!! Have to move the stuffs out of the lab so that they could do the flooring over the weekend. After lunch, I was happily doing my work when a call came in to ask me to help to get quotations for some barriers which I've already sourced for some the previous day but was waiting for them to get back to me. Told them gotta wait for them to get back they say cannot wor, try to find somemore suppliers. Okie .. nvm that's part of being lab in charge job. Near 5pm, my supplier called me to go down to collect some stuffs, collected, came back and someone saw the thing. First thing that came out. So lan!! You wan cheap you wan good. You go and find yourself lah!! ~!@#$%^&*() To top things off, i've spent my friday night alone at home with a splitting headache. I'm tired. I'm disappointed. I'm fed up. I'm freaking pissed off.